Merry Christmas

I hadnt the time to update my blog lately, but that doesnt mean I am gone. I am still here, locked up since May, 20th. I have to say it was a rough but wonderful year. The first weeks and months were really hard, I couldnt concentrate, was aroused most of the time and the chastity belt still felt like an impurity to my body. This all changed after a while. Sometimes I feel like I would miss something, the feeling of having an orgasm as an example, but its nothing I couldnt handle. Well its not like I would have a chance anyways, but its not that hard anymore. I enjoy playing with my dildos. Its fun and it feels great, just not the same and no "big bang".

I still dislike the taste of cum and if you wonder why I am talking about the taste of cum right now, when I am locked up in chastity its easy to explain. Prostate Milking and my keyholder decided after I begged that I miss to cum for a while, that I should get cum so she makes me eat her boyfriends cum from time to time and finds it very amusing to see me eating every drop out of a used condom.

Anyways that year was great and I think getting locked up in chastity was a wonderful thing. This sounds strange now doesnt it? but thats how I feel. All the humiliation, the desperation, the arousal etc. I would really miss all that.

So I want to say thanks to all the supporters so far and wish everyone a wonderful christmas and a happy new year. See you all next year.

Double time...

Ok someone made the suggestion that I should run a "double time" month. Meaning that every dollar donated equals 2 extra days of chastity. As you wish... and dont forget that every dollar will still add one hour of "butt plug time".

Plug the Slave

Its butt plug time. Well end of October it is. For every dollar I receive in October I will use this plug for 1 hour. So keep my ass stretched.

Stay focused

Its been a while now since I got locked up in chastity and a lot things changed. My moodswings are gone now, I think I start to accept the fact I am not going to cum any time soon also I am not really getting hard inside that chastity cage anymore. Well I am sure a wonderful woman could still get it really hard and me down on my knees begging if she really wants. I still do have wet dreams and sometimes its really frustrating, but then I just take one of my dildos and enjoy fucking myself with it for a while. It really helps (at least a bit).

I think my whole personality changed. I am more calmed down, much more friendly to everyone, especially to woman. Its true what some people say about chastity, it really changes you after some time. Its not that I wouldnt miss touching my cock, stroking and having an orgasm. I would probably suck a cock if I could jerk off afterwards, its just that other things became more important lately. Does that make me a better slave? I dont know... maybe a bit, but I am not the one who should judge about that.

Pictures

First I want to say thanks to Ritchie and Matthew for their donations. I got 25 $ together, which brings me a little closer to my dream of having a full steal chastity belt. Thanks you two and as promised I made one picture for every dollar donated, not to mention that I have to stay a little longer chaste aswell.

Now I was thinking of doing something similar this month. I have two different ideas in my mind. First I could offer to wear a big sized buttplug for 1 hour for every dollar donated. Second I could offer to post a video of my "fun" session with "big earl" today. Let me know what you think or maybe you have a third option?

Ok but lets go to the promised pictures. I think I really got it "hard" this time and hopefully you agree with me that this dildo is huge and no I wont spoil it, see yourself...

2 more days

Time is running out. So this is your last chance to get some more pictures of me and "big earl" by the end of the months. I am going to make the pictures next week and will post them afterwards.

I am also going to extend my "counter" so it reflects the real time I will be locked up in chastity. So far I have gotten 40 extra days thanks to Ritch.

The first ten donators

To make it more attractive for people to donate. The first ten donations will count double. So pay 1 dollar and I will be locked up for 2 days. Also for every dollar I am able to raise till the end of the month I will post one picture of me playing with a black 10 inch dildo and I will take requests of what you would like to see on those pictures.

Help me getting a steel chastity belt

Some of you know that I always dreamed of having a nice and secure full steel chastity belt. Something I cannot get out anymore, something I would need a iron saw to break out. Something really secure. So I want beg peoples to help me make this dream come true and I am offering to stay chaste for much longer as an reward.

How will it work. Well we decided that for every $ I will stay locked up for another day. Hopefully by the end of my 391 days we will have enough money together to order a steel chastity belt. So I could end with 800 more days of chastity! and no there will be no cumming after 391 days, not even once!

Now the question is if there are enough really cruel people out there willing to donate some money to make me wish I would have never put on a chastity belt?

Cumslut

Today I missed cumming that much, that I picked up that glas full of cum I saved a while ago in my freezer. There were at least 10 loads of cum in that glas. So I put the glas in a bowl with warm water and waited for the gum to melt and then I emptied it in my mouth and played with the cum around. Feeling the taste on my tongue. I have to admit that I disslike eating my own cum and normaly I wouldnt do such a thing, but this time was different. I am so unbelievable horny today. I dont know why. Wasnt horny for some time now, but today it hit me hard and then I wanted to cum but couldnt. Wanted to smell my own cum, feel it on my hands and so I was happy that I had some cum saved before I got locked up.

Its gross but I did enjoy that huge load of cum in my mouth and I swallowed it all down and it tasted great. I wish I would have saved another 10 loads or even more. A bow full of cum, damn I would so love that right now. If there wouldnt be those sexual diseases I would go and ask people if they would be willing to send me condoms full with cum and I would pour it all in a huge bowl and swallow it down live on webcam.

Am I becoming a cumslut? I think so and I hope I will stay a cumslut after I got unlocked in 309 days.

No I didnt leave...

and before you ask, yes I am still locked up in chastity. Just was really busy with work and things got over my head a little and honestly I really wasnt in the mood to write anything on my blog. I just wasnt in the mood.

Its 2 and a half months now since I had my last orgasm. I do miss playing with my cock, but I have to admit that I am having a hard time to remember how it feels when you cum.

I own 4 dildos now and use them more or less weekly now. First I felt a bit ashamed to fuck myself with it, but now its the only "pleasure" I am allowed to have and it helps sometimes to release some "steam" and before you ask, I do manage to cum that way, just without having an orgasm and I am always limb in that situation. Its frustrating when you see your cum dripping out of your limb cock and you dont get any pleasure from it, it just comes out, drop by drop and I have to admit that I like that feeling when that dildo pushes inside of me. Its just that its like edging. Its a nice and enjoyable feeling but there is no orgasm as an reward which is very frustrating as soon as you stop using your dildo. Hard to explain, its like when you have an itch, you rub and it eases the pain, but the itch is still there and as soon as you stop rubbing it you want to do it again.

What to do?

I know I didnt really update my blog lately, its just that I really wasnt in the mood to write something. Its an up and down lately for me. Some days I feel really great and some other days its just frustrating. My wet dreams are more or less gone at least I dont have that many wet dreams anymore and if you believe it or not I dont really think about sex anymore. Yes sure if I walk on the street and see a nice sexy girl in a summer dress, barefooted, long dark hairs, then I still turn my head and stare at her and I get hard. I wish I could go home afterwards and just jerk off, I bet I would blow a huge load on my chest, but I cannot and thats sometimes very frustrating.

Apart from that I noticed that I much more calmed down lately, not that aggressive anymore and often when I talk with a woman I dont think about having sex with her. Oh and I am starting to notice how some women try to "play" with men. How they sit on a chair and have their legs crossed, how they play with their shoes or how they stand at the table and push their hips away, so you can see her nice firm butt even more. Yes I know some women enjoy teasing and controlling men that way and normaly it would work with me too. I would stare at her butt, forget about what I wanted to say, with my stiffy in my pants, but right now that doesnt work anymore. I am wondering if some of them starting to think that I must be gay or something.

Sure a more direct approach would still work. Just some special kind of keys in her hands and I would fall down on my knees and would do what ever she wants me to do, but dropping a pencil by accident and showing me what a wonderful firm butt you have, doesnt really work anymore, so you have to do more than that...

Hmmm do I sound horny right now? *sigh* You know now you know why I dont blog that much lately, writing those things and having those daydreams inbetween are torture...

A month!!!

One month... one long month is over. I am still aroused from time to time. Especially the last few days. Hot summer days I have to add and so many lovely female feet everywhere. Strangley I start to find women attractive I wouldnt find attractive a few weeks before. Must be my desperation to cum I think.

Well but its starting to get easier I think, at least the nights are not full with erotic dreams anymore and often in the day I dont even think about sex, its just sometimes then it hits me hard. TV is full with sex and submission. Never noticed that before.

So only 12 more months to come now... only *sigh*

Really only two and a half weeks yet?

*sigh* I have to admit that I am still so aroused most of the time, but work and other things are keeping me busy right now (gladly). So what are the news? Well the last few days I worked a lot, went out with friends and tried to forget about my poor little locked up cock. The nights are fine now, I still wake up with a "good morning stiffy", but at least I can sleep in the night.

I have my ups and downs sometimes. Some days I have no trouble with the chastity situation at all, sometimes I am not even aroused and some other days it hits me hard. I noticed that I am more friendly now... strangly but I am starting to not think about sex when I see an attractive women. Trying not to look at her ass, breats and feet etc. and starting to have "deeper" conversations. Its strange sometimes and hard to explain.

So yes its really only 2 and a half week since I got locked up in chastity. Still I dont know how many more weeks to go for me.

I am still here

I am not gone, I am still locked up, its just that I really hadnt the time to write the last few days. Mainly cause I was to busy with work and other things, tried to forget about my chastity for a while and not writing a blog or checking the usual websites helped a bit.

Well what should I say, the week was horrible, frustrated and aroused all the time. I pretty much kept myself busy with work and after work I kept working in the garden or watched tv.

I think I should really find myself a hobby now.

Red Alert

My desperation is sky high. I dont know why, maybe its the weather, but I really have to fight with myself now. The chastity cage shows no mercy. Sometimes I wish it would just burst under the pressure of my little friend getting hard inside, but sadly I dont think that will ever happen :(

Just seeing my little friend locked up right now is so arousing... I try to touch it and you cannot.

No update yesterday?!

No there wasnt a update yesterday and yes I am still here, locked up, chaste and denied. I just hadnt the time to write something yesterday. Was busy with work, came home and worked in the garden a bit. Yes I sometimes do, ok the truth is I hate working in the garden, but oh well... I had to do something to keep me distracted and it wasnt to hot outside. So I started working in the garden for a bit and went to bed pretty early.

I have to admit that I am starting to miss touching my little friend and this will be my second weekend without ... *sigh* At least we will have another barbecue in a few hours. Beer and a good steak helps sometimes.

Oh and I have lots of spare time right now, I didnt realize how much time I "waste" with cumming. Seeing my little friend locked up inside the chastity belt makes me so sad sometimes.

Its raining

Its raining outside. Not really a bad thing. I love rain. The sound of it and the fresh air and after having a few hot summer days its so refreshing now.

Strangly I wasnt really aroused today, which isnt bad, the last few days were really hard. Literally.

So what did I do today? Boring things. Work, work and work again. Oh did I mention that there was this really hot blond girl in the city today? She walked barefeet in the rain. Her lovely feet slippery wet, her soles all dirty. Awwww.... I wish she would have walked to me, pointed her finger at the ground and ordered me to lick her feet clean. That would be so wonderful.

Help me please

I woke up with a good morning stiffy. Like my little friend would let me sleep for long and he stayed hard for a good hour. Took a cold shower and some breakfast and tried to avoid any sexual thoughts. Right now the smallest stimulation on the outside of my chastity cage makes me stiff. Imagine you would drive in a car and you would get aroused from the vibration of a running engine. Yes thats what happens to me all the time now.

I am in serious trouble. I am stiff most of the time right now and those erections are getting painful strong and they stay like this for a good amount of time. I have to admit when I look downwards under the shower and see that chastity cage between my legs, seeing my little friend locked up inside, so close but still so far away. No chance for me to touch it and I miss touching it. Its humiliating and arousing at the same time. My balls are so full and heavy. I think any Mistress would enjoy torturing those full balls now.

Its driving me nuts... Help me please...

A week ago

A week ago I asked my Keyholder if she would like to hold the keys again for a while. You know the story already... by midnight I had plenty of comments on my thread and my fate was sealed. Do I regret it you might ask? Hell no! So far its one of the best things in my life!

A few rules changed this week aswell. I have tasks to do from now on. One task is to watch porn for at least 30 mins every day, with one porn free day every month (the first day each month). Another task is that I have to write a story to Mistress Sara every week. I also had to write a story to Miss Dani today, for beeing that cheeky once to her.

You can say what ever you want about me, but I dont do the same mistakes twice and hopefully she will enjoy reading my story today.

So what else happend this week. Apart from getting ostrich eggs and the two imitators on fetlife? - not much. Oh I might tell you that one of the imitators already left fetlife without a trace. Did he get cold feet? and the other one is a hell of a joke too. Seriously people like that make us slaves look bad.

Porn and chastity. Not a good idea.

Today I got told that I have to watch porn for at least 30mins a day. Sounds like fun doesnt it? So I checked my collection of videos (yes I admit I have some porn at home *shrugs*) and found some nice foot fetish porn. Two very attractive women kissing and licking their feet and starting to have fun with each other. A little later a guy enters the room and they have a threesome. Hot steamy sex, lots of feet and sole views, and a nice cumshot in the end.

God I thought my chastity cage would explode and I am still so turned on right now. Watching them having fun with each other and seeing how they fuck and in the end he blows his hot white load all over their feet.

You better hope that you will never have to watch porn when wearing a chastity belt. My balls so hurt right now :( Thats torture! Someone please inform amnesty international.

Please let me out...

I am not sure what to write. I mean do people really want to read how freaking hard this weekend was? Literally. I am starting to regret that I got myself into all of this, but now its to late. I am locked up and there are 387 more days to come. Please, could we just forget about all this and that I never wanted to get locked up in the first place?

I miss touching my little friend *sigh*

If people would like to hear what I did today, trust me you will get bored. Woke up early when I got my good morning stiffy. It lasted for like a hour and only a good ice cold shower helped, ok I admit it didnt really help, but at least I was awake afterwards. Watched some tv, surfed the internet, wrote some emails and had a barbecue with friends in the afternoon.

Thats it... boring I told you, but what did you expect? that I would have sex today? ;)

Sand

God I am so aroused right now and sadly I have nothing to do right now. Just sitting around, trying to forget about that it is already 4 days ago that I jerked off.

I think I should go to a beach and starting counting grains of sand. This should hopefully keep me busy the next 388 days and it might a good way to think about something else, but with my luck there will be a wet t-shirt contest going on today or some super models do a foot fetish movie today.

Helpless

I feel a bit helpless right now. My cock locked up secure in a chastity device and I am constantly aroused. Yesterday I had an erection for like 2 hours and my balls start to ache.

I am not sure how I can take this any longer, I get told I will get used to it, it just takes a few months. Oh thanks that helps me so much right now, I am glad that I only have to suffer a few months till it finally gets easier ;)

Its weekend now, a good time to get distracted. I am trying to get my toughts away from anything which could arouse me, but its a nearly impossible task. Tiny things make me stiff right now. I think even the wind blowing could make me cum in seconds. I know many of you will have wonderful hot and steamy sex this weekend. Sadly not me.

I was surprised that I slept that well last night, maybe it was cause I did some sports friday afternoon and I hadnt gotten much sleep since I got locked up. My little friend made sure that I woke up early in the morning and it took a good amount of time till he decided to give me some rest. Thats torture, he never gets so stiff outside the chastity cage.

Pandora's Box

What have I done?! It wasnt my intention, please believe me. When I checked my thread on fetlife I noticed that another guy posted a thread there and is asking the community to give him days in chastity.

I had to smile at first, that guy knows about my fate and wants to do the same? I hope he thought twice before doing so. He could be stuck with years in chastity and thats what worries me a little. I mean I am glad that my tally was restricted to just one day and that was already long enough to get me 391 days. Yes in a way I feel a bit sorry for everyone who hadnt have the chance to gift me with more days of chastity, but seriously I had to do that or I would have probably found myself locked up in chastity for the rest of my life. Not that this would be a bad thing. I mean handing over the keys to my chastity belt to a wonderful Mistress on the day of our marriage, why not? But something like that shouldnt be handed over lightly and not be done in the way of posting a thread on a website.

Oh yes I had some time of thinking the last few days and I dont regret what I did. I think this can become a wonderful experience for me. It will be a tough task, there will be days when I will regret it, but its not an impossible task and I will do my best to fulfil my obligation. Like I would have much of a choice right now.

And there is third one doing the same now too. I hope I didnt open pandora's box and this will lead in a masses of poor guys kept in chastity for the next years. At least that way some attention might be drawn away from me, now that there are 2 more victims to still the blood thirst.

I wish those guys luck they will need it and it will be interesting to see how everything develops.

I need a break

I am so tired and frustrated. I stayed hard inside my chastity cage for most of the time today and it was a though thing to stay focused. On top of that I hadnt sleep much the last night, so I am pretty worn out right now.

Some kind of lovely vacation would be nice right now. A lonely beach, pina colada and a hot girl. Ok I think I should forget about that hot girl.

I should go to bed soon, get some sleep. Biting in my pillow every time I get another erection inside that chastity cage.

Wild dreams

I have to admit that reading some of the comments on fetlife are an incredible huge turn on for me, especially those from Mistress Sara. I mean seriously I got 391 days of chastity and she still would like to add more, but what really troubles my mind right now is the fact that I wish she would be the one holding the keys.

People asked if I am serious about my chastity. Its a strange thing and hard to explain why I would like to have someone locking me up in chastity and keeping me denied. I think its similar to people who like to endure pain. I also think it has something to do with the fact that I think that the person holding the keys is superior to me and it is a way for me to show my respect and submission to that person by handing over the right to decide when ever I can have an orgasm.

It took a while for me to fall asleep yesterday. Seriously I was so aroused yesterday night that I couldnt fall asleep and everytime I closed my eyes I had the wildest dreams poping up in my mind. It was really frustrating. If you want to know how I felt then get yourself really turned on and then try to sleep with your hands above the blanket. Normaly I would just jerk off but sadly thats far out of reach for now.

Supermarket

What a day... I felt like beeing in a state of trance for most of the time today. Sitting there in front of my computer and writing my blog. Breathing a few times and feeling the urge to stroke. Its just day number 1 *sigh*

Its starting to get summer outside now, girls in short dresses and open shoes around their lovely feet and there were a few girls with sexy feet in the supermarket today. Its really hard stay focused and when I was home again I noticed that I forgot to buy half the things so I had to go back to the supermarket again.

The cruel thing is that it feels like the time is moving slower now. I am so aroused *sigh*

The numbers are in

It didnt take long and I felt relieved when the clock turned midnight. By then 391 people had left an comment on my thread on fetlife. 391 people *sigh* I didnt expect that many people to post there, honestly I expected something like 30-40 comments and I had to swallow hard yesterday.

It looks like a lot of people had lots of fun yesterday by leaving comments and increasing the duration of my chastity and the final decission if future comments will still give me some extra time isnt made yet, I mean we are in no hurry to decide that now are we? ;)

I couldnt really sleep tonight. Still had that magic number in my mind every time I closed my eyes. 391 days. I think it will take a few more days till I finally start to realize what that really means. Next year summer *sigh* will be the next time I am allowed to have an orgasm, if and only if there wont be any extra time, but as I said there isnt made any decision about that yet. I am sure some of you would love to give me some extra time wouldnt you?

How I feel right now? I am not sure. I am a bit frustrated right now to be honest and apart from that I am starting to ache already.