What to do?

I know I didnt really update my blog lately, its just that I really wasnt in the mood to write something. Its an up and down lately for me. Some days I feel really great and some other days its just frustrating. My wet dreams are more or less gone at least I dont have that many wet dreams anymore and if you believe it or not I dont really think about sex anymore. Yes sure if I walk on the street and see a nice sexy girl in a summer dress, barefooted, long dark hairs, then I still turn my head and stare at her and I get hard. I wish I could go home afterwards and just jerk off, I bet I would blow a huge load on my chest, but I cannot and thats sometimes very frustrating.

Apart from that I noticed that I much more calmed down lately, not that aggressive anymore and often when I talk with a woman I dont think about having sex with her. Oh and I am starting to notice how some women try to "play" with men. How they sit on a chair and have their legs crossed, how they play with their shoes or how they stand at the table and push their hips away, so you can see her nice firm butt even more. Yes I know some women enjoy teasing and controlling men that way and normaly it would work with me too. I would stare at her butt, forget about what I wanted to say, with my stiffy in my pants, but right now that doesnt work anymore. I am wondering if some of them starting to think that I must be gay or something.

Sure a more direct approach would still work. Just some special kind of keys in her hands and I would fall down on my knees and would do what ever she wants me to do, but dropping a pencil by accident and showing me what a wonderful firm butt you have, doesnt really work anymore, so you have to do more than that...

Hmmm do I sound horny right now? *sigh* You know now you know why I dont blog that much lately, writing those things and having those daydreams inbetween are torture...